random thoughts on adoption #2

I have lots of fun pictures to post of things we have been doing so far this summer. But I'm not going to do that right now. I've been thinking a lot about our second adoption journey lately. With Lincoln, we were 1 year from start to finish -- from starting our paperwork to him being born. At this point, we are at about 14 months (but who is counting, right?). I thought this time around would be easier since we already have Lincoln. I thought I wouldn't feel that hole of being childless. But it's hard in another way. I see how Lincoln is with babies and what an awesome big brother he will be and it makes me sad that I can't make that happen as quickly as I would like. I've been doing lots of reading and trying to figure out how to speed things up. But I came to a realization the other day. I need to just be patient. Profound, eh? I was looking at our adoption blog and our profile and wondering if I needed to revamp things and make us look more appealing. And then I realized that this is who we are. Anything different would be changing who we are to "sell" ourselves better. I don't want to change who I am or who we are in order to get a baby. Our baby will come to us when the time is right. I have a new resolve to just chill out and wait patiently. I have the funniest, cutest kid who I need to enjoy instead of wishing the days away hoping for another baby.